Dear Mom

 The work is going pretty good. there's is a lot to do with these upcoming changes. I have to teach the new missionaries that are coming in and show them around the mission. i also have to take the old ones home at all hours of the night. I honestly never knew how much planning and work goes into changes like i do now. We had a 3 hour planning meeting with the office staff discussing who is going to be where and when are they going to be there and how they are getting there. Its very confusing and even more so not having Elder Milton here to train me on things like this! I guess we will see how it goes!

From Mom:

So...I applied for a part time job!  It’s at D.R., the troubled boys home.  I don’t know if I’ll even get a response, but I’ve got to try to jump back into the working world somehow.  I’ve talked with dad for a long time (years) about getting a part time job or going to school or something but it just never felt like that right time, until now.  Fortunately, I can afford to be picky.  I will only work during the day while Becca is gone, no nights or weekends.  See, picky!  I’ve been very blessed to be able to stay home and raise you guys instead of being forced to put you in daycare and have a job I don’t like.  Of course, I could have had a job I loved and then I would have been a part time mom but that never felt right to me. 

I’m going to look for other jobs too.  I just really feel like the timing is right and I need to do something for me, my brain, my talents etc.  I was telling dad last night that I don’t even know what I’m good at, other then raising kids, cooking, cleaning, listening and such.  I don’t know if I can paint, write, ride a horse, etc. 

I know, right now you’re probably thinking I’ve fallen and hit my head (that’s the look dad gave me) but I just feel like its time for me to branch out.  I have watched my kids do brave things, spread their wings and fly, while I wait, watch, hope, pray and love and now, I think its okay for me to try too.  Does that makes sense?  I’m not going to do anything crazy and I’m not trying to “find myself” but I’ve felt that there is more life out there then I’ve allowed myself to explore.  Our family will always come first!

Anyway, dad filled you in on all of the weekly stuff so I thought I’d tell you my plan : ) 

I love you buddy.  I love this Gospel.  I love the safety and comfort it gives me in this crazy messed up world.  I love that my kids are growing up to be wonderful, thoughtful, hard working, loving, funny, committed humans!  It is such a blessing in my life to see that.  I love your dad and the friendship we have. 

I hope you have a wonderful week, full of service, learning and feeling the Spirit.

Love Mom

To Mom:

Mom,

That's the kind of answer I've been looking for every time I've asked you "what are you up to".  I love to hear that you want to do all these kinds of things. I'm super excited for you. I love that you want to do more and I'm completely behind you but you should never feel as though you haven't done enough. You have done more for me and my sisters than any one as ever thought about doing and I thank you so much for that.

So tell me a little bit more about your plans. What would you like to do? Is there any hobbies that you would like to do? How about any schooling? 

Well Mom I'm so glad that you told me about what you want to do for the rest of your life. its nice to know.